Well I am not worried about being alone anymore. Things seem more realistic when you sit down and truly think about them. :sweat: This whole time I have been overacting to being so lonely. Mainly I was just whining. p: :whee: I have to admit that because I feel horrible after meeting people who have alot less happening in their lives and have almost no friends at all. The people I meet are all emotionally resiliant people who like me have gone thru shit and just want a downtime or other reason they don't want to speak about. I don't pity these people or anything but I wish they would help me understand. I think I might be asking too much from these people. I told them about my journals and how I have to write about almost everything in them and they all agreed I could write/type this but I can't mention the name of their group or any of their names. I am not a member of this club but I do enjoy their company.
My cat is acting normal now...He wants me to give him more and more attention. He's so cute when he chases butterflies around in the backyard while I read on the porch. :whee: He is definitely my bestfriend... :sweat: which is sorta sad because he's a cat. Well at lease he listens and when I cry he licks my tears away. Which hurts but the most any male has ever done for me. :sweat: I have absolutely losy men senses. I can't see how I get myself in all these relationships that turn horrible in the end or I meet a guy I have no intrest in who persist to stalk me until I am utterly afraid of him. I can't help it. Well I am definitely not dating right now because of the whole Jake thing and what happen with the Starbucks guy that I don't ever want to meantion again. :vein: I think I am getting along pretty well...emotionally lonely but my cat and my few friends can help that. I wish I could meet people who aren't so busy but what should I expect everyone my age has a job or is going to school. :sweat: I think I am becoming an insomiac...For the last week or so I have only slept a total of 28 hours starting last friday. Well I mainly just lay their until I fall asleep. I got to go...I am going to go pick up my reserved copy of Harry Potter and the Half-blood prince. I was worried about the rain...I hate to drive in bad weather. The rain stopped so I am going to go now Bye!